I stumbled upon this today. It's too beautiful to not share.
It’s amazing how God made man, and so beautiful how he made woman!
Why did God create Woman from Man’s rib, when He could
have simply created her from dust, as He did Man? This
is a story that puts a beautiful touch on the
reasoning:
“When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke
them into being. When I created man, I formed him from
the dust of the Earth and breathed life into his
nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed
the breath of life into man because your nostrils are
too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him
so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man
was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with
the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose
the bone that protects man’s life. I chose the rib,
which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,
as you are meant to do.”
“Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I
created you perfectly and beautifully. Your
characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate
and fragile. You provide protection for the most
delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the
center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of
life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken
before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man
as the rib cage supports the body.”
“You were not taken from his feet, to be under him,
nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You
were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be
held close to his side. You are my perfect angel. You
are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a
splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I
see the virtue in your heart. Your eyes: don’t change
them. Your lips: how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose so perfect in form, your hands so gentle to
touch. I’ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep;
I’ve held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives
and breathes, you are the most like me.”
“Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he
was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could
only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and
experience with me, I fashioned in you: my holiness,
my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and
support. You are special because you are the extension
of me.”
“Man represents my image, woman – my emotions.
Together, you represent the totality of God. So man:
treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is
fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to
her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage
your own heart, the heart of your Father and the heart
of her Father. Woman, support man. In humility, show
him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle
quietness show your strength. In love, show him that
you are the rib that protects his inner self.”
Also, check out this link...
http://difficultlyglorious.wordpress.com/2010/03/26/if-ribs-could-talk/
Friday, March 18, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Why God’s Love Is Better Than “Unconditional”
Why God’s Love Is Better Than “Unconditional”
Wow!!!! This gives me a whole new way of looking at God's love. <3
In his essay-turned-booklet, God’s Love: Better Than Unconditional, David Powlison suggests that people who use the term often have good intentions, wanting to affirm four interrelated truths:
First, Powlison suggests that “there are more biblical and vivid ways to capture each of the four truths just stated.” “People currently employ a somewhat vague, abstract word—unconditional—when the Bible gives us more vivid and specific words, metaphors, and stories.”
Second, it’s not true that unmerited grace is strictly unconditional. Jesus Christ opened a way for us to experience the biblical love of God by fulfilling two conditions: a life of perfect obedience to the moral will of God, and a perfect substitutionary death on our behalf. Powlison writes: “Unconditional love? No, something much better. People who now use the word unconditional often communicate an acceptance neutered of this detailed, Christ-specific truth.”
Third, God’s love is more than conditional, for it is intended to change those who receive it. “Unconditional” often connotes “you’re okay.” But there is something wrong with you. The word “unconditional” may well express the welcome of God, but it does not well express the point of his welcome.
Fourth, “unconditional love” carries a load of cultural baggage, wedded to words like “tolerance, acceptance, affirmation, benign, okay,” and a philosophy that says love should not impose values, expectations, or beliefs on another. In fact, humanist psychology even has a term for it: “unconditional positive regard” (Carl Rogers).
Powlison says, “We can do better”:
Wow!!!! This gives me a whole new way of looking at God's love. <3
In his essay-turned-booklet, God’s Love: Better Than Unconditional, David Powlison suggests that people who use the term often have good intentions, wanting to affirm four interrelated truths:
- “Conditional love” is bad—unconditional is shorthand for the opposite of manipulation, demand, judgmentalism.
- God’s love is patient—unconditional is shorthand for hanging on for the long haul, rather than bailing out when the going gets rough.
- True love is God’s gift—unconditional is shorthand for unearned blessings, rather than legalism.
- God receives you just as you are: sinful, suffering, confused—unconditional is shorthand for God’s invitation to rough, dirty, broken people.
First, Powlison suggests that “there are more biblical and vivid ways to capture each of the four truths just stated.” “People currently employ a somewhat vague, abstract word—unconditional—when the Bible gives us more vivid and specific words, metaphors, and stories.”
Second, it’s not true that unmerited grace is strictly unconditional. Jesus Christ opened a way for us to experience the biblical love of God by fulfilling two conditions: a life of perfect obedience to the moral will of God, and a perfect substitutionary death on our behalf. Powlison writes: “Unconditional love? No, something much better. People who now use the word unconditional often communicate an acceptance neutered of this detailed, Christ-specific truth.”
Third, God’s love is more than conditional, for it is intended to change those who receive it. “Unconditional” often connotes “you’re okay.” But there is something wrong with you. The word “unconditional” may well express the welcome of God, but it does not well express the point of his welcome.
Fourth, “unconditional love” carries a load of cultural baggage, wedded to words like “tolerance, acceptance, affirmation, benign, okay,” and a philosophy that says love should not impose values, expectations, or beliefs on another. In fact, humanist psychology even has a term for it: “unconditional positive regard” (Carl Rogers).
Powlison says, “We can do better”:
Saying “God’s love is unconditional love” is a bit like saying “The sun’s light at high noon is a flashlight in a blackout.”For a complementary perspective, see John Piper’s answer, “Is God’s Love Unconditional?“
Come again?
A dim bulb sustains certain analogies to the sun.
Unconditional love does sustain certain analogies to God’s love.
But why not start with the blazing sun rather than the flashlight?
When you look closely, God’s love is very different from “unconditional positive regard,” the seedbed of contemporary notions of unconditional love.
God does not accept me just as I am;
He loves me despite how I am;
He loves me just as Jesus is;
He loves me enough to devote my life to renewing me in the image of Jesus.
This love is much, much, much better than unconditional! Perhaps we could call it “contraconditional” love.
Contrary to the conditions for knowing God’s blessing, He has blessed me because His Son fulfilled the conditions.
Contrary to my due, He loves me.
And now I can begin to change, not to earn love but because of love.
. . . You need something better than unconditional love.
You need the crown of thorns.
You need the touch of life to the dead son of the widow of Nain.
You need the promise to the repentant thief.
You need to know, “I will never leave you or forsake you.”
You need forgiveness.
You need a Vinedresser, a Shepherd, a Father, a Savior.
You need to become like the one who loves you.
You need the better love of Jesus.
Friday, February 18, 2011
86,400
Email I got from my dad that I wanted to share. Kind of goes along with my Life is Short post.
Imagine that you had won the following prize in a contest:
Each morning your bank would deposit $86,400.00 in your private account
for your use.
However, this prize has rules, just as any game has certain rules.
The first set of rules would be:
Everything that you didn't spend during each day would be taken
away from you.
You may not simply transfer money into some other account.
You may only spend it.
Each morning upon awakening, the bank opens your account with another
$86,400.00 for that day.
The second set of rules:
The bank can end the game without warning; at any time it can say,
Its over,the game is over!
It can close the account and you will not receive a new one.
What would you personally do?
You would buy anything and everything you wanted, right?
Not only for yourself, but for all people you love, right?
Even for people you don't know, because you couldn't possibly
spend it all on yourself, right?
You would try to spend every cent, and use it all, right?ACTUALLY, this GAME is REALITY!Each of us is in possession of such a magical bank. We just can't seem to see it.
The MAGICAL BANK is TIME!
Each morning we awaken to receive 86,400 seconds as a gift of life, and when
we go to sleep at night, any remaining time is NOT credited to us.
What we haven't used up that day is forever lost.Yesterday is forever gone.Each morning the account is refilled, but the bank can dissolve your account
at any time....WITHOUT WARNING.SO, what will YOU do with your next 86,400 seconds?Aren't they worth so much more than the same amount in dollars?
Think about that, and always think of this:
Enjoy every second of your life, because time races by so much quicker
than you think.So take care of yourself, be Happy, Love Deeply and enjoy your life!Here's wishing you a wonderful and beautiful day!!!
Imagine that you had won the following prize in a contest:
Each morning your bank would deposit $86,400.00 in your private account
for your use.
However, this prize has rules, just as any game has certain rules.
The first set of rules would be:
Everything that you didn't spend during each day would be taken
away from you.
You may not simply transfer money into some other account.
You may only spend it.
Each morning upon awakening, the bank opens your account with another
$86,400.00 for that day.
The second set of rules:
The bank can end the game without warning; at any time it can say,
Its over,the game is over!
It can close the account and you will not receive a new one.
What would you personally do?
You would buy anything and everything you wanted, right?
Not only for yourself, but for all people you love, right?
Even for people you don't know, because you couldn't possibly
spend it all on yourself, right?
You would try to spend every cent, and use it all, right?ACTUALLY, this GAME is REALITY!Each of us is in possession of such a magical bank. We just can't seem to see it.
The MAGICAL BANK is TIME!
Each morning we awaken to receive 86,400 seconds as a gift of life, and when
we go to sleep at night, any remaining time is NOT credited to us.
What we haven't used up that day is forever lost.Yesterday is forever gone.Each morning the account is refilled, but the bank can dissolve your account
at any time....WITHOUT WARNING.SO, what will YOU do with your next 86,400 seconds?Aren't they worth so much more than the same amount in dollars?
Think about that, and always think of this:
Enjoy every second of your life, because time races by so much quicker
than you think.So take care of yourself, be Happy, Love Deeply and enjoy your life!Here's wishing you a wonderful and beautiful day!!!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Heaven!
I am super distracted today. Firstly, it's Valentine's Day, but other than the distraction of the fact that I am single... I am also distracted by a million other things, my car situation (my tire blew out this weekend & my other car is in the shop), my job, my bills, my friendships, this headache I seem to get every day multiple times throughout the day. The list could go on with all the things that are distracting me. You get the point. So sorry if this post seems scatter-brained. Hopefully it will still make sense & I will be able to get my point across.
I had an amazing day yesterday. Clay, Kendra, & I went to the Austin Stone for church. Matt Carter gave his sermon on Heaven. It was a fun, happy message about the promises of Heaven & the new world. Isaiah 65:17 "Behold, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind." 2 Peter 3:13 But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness. Revelation 21:1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea.
Listen to Matt Carter's sermon at this link below.
http://www.austinstone.org/resources/sermons/category/what_will_heaven_be_like/
How exciting is that sermon!!! I am so ready for a world without sin. I am so ready to meet Jesus & God & all the people from the Bible. I am so ready to have relationships without sin. I am just sitting here trying to imagine all this & I am in complete awe. There is no way I can even imagine how wonderful it is all going to be, yet I am so excited & fired up about it. I hope that you are too! A world with no insecurites, no worries, not death, no tears, no sin, no pain... best of all our creator will be there with us!
God is molding me into the person that I was made to be. Sometimes I may fail, but He is always there to pick me up.
I don't need anything but Jesus & God's Grace. I am going to try to stop worrying about the small things. I am going to stop worrying about "boys". I don't need them. I am going to start focusing more on the important things. It won't be easy. But is anything ever worth doing or worth having easy to obtain?
Today, Jesus is my valentine. <3 & Everyday from now on for that matter & he even was every day before that I Just didn't realize it :)
I had an amazing day yesterday. Clay, Kendra, & I went to the Austin Stone for church. Matt Carter gave his sermon on Heaven. It was a fun, happy message about the promises of Heaven & the new world. Isaiah 65:17 "Behold, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind." 2 Peter 3:13 But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness. Revelation 21:1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea.
Listen to Matt Carter's sermon at this link below.
http://www.austinstone.org/resources/sermons/category/what_will_heaven_be_like/
How exciting is that sermon!!! I am so ready for a world without sin. I am so ready to meet Jesus & God & all the people from the Bible. I am so ready to have relationships without sin. I am just sitting here trying to imagine all this & I am in complete awe. There is no way I can even imagine how wonderful it is all going to be, yet I am so excited & fired up about it. I hope that you are too! A world with no insecurites, no worries, not death, no tears, no sin, no pain... best of all our creator will be there with us!
God is molding me into the person that I was made to be. Sometimes I may fail, but He is always there to pick me up.
I don't need anything but Jesus & God's Grace. I am going to try to stop worrying about the small things. I am going to stop worrying about "boys". I don't need them. I am going to start focusing more on the important things. It won't be easy. But is anything ever worth doing or worth having easy to obtain?
Today, Jesus is my valentine. <3 & Everyday from now on for that matter & he even was every day before that I Just didn't realize it :)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Life is short
I know we have all heard the phrase that "life is short, so cherish it," or "life is short, don't waste it," etc. But, have you ever really thought about that phrase? Really, have you? Life does not seem short.. especially not at the age of myself & my peers. Sometimes we seem to think we are on top of the word & invincible. Sure we see things happen to people our age, but we think, jeez that will never happen to me. We think we have nothing but time, so we constanly put things off thinking that we can get to that later, we are still young.
If we continue to think like this we will probably end up old & regretting putting things off & not living life to the fullest in our younger moments when we were much more capable of doing things. That is, if we even live long enough to grow old. Life is fragile. It could be over at any moment.
"Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered- how fleeting my life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath." Psalm 39: 4-5 (New Living Translation).
Imagine when you breathe onto glass, & how your breath appears on the glass for only an instant & then disappears. I picture our life to be like that. Compared to eternity; our lives are but mere breaths.
So, I ask you, where do you want to spend your enternity after this life? How are you spending your life right now? What would you do differently today if you knew you were going to die tomorrow?
In church, we have been discussing eternity. This quote continuously got brought up. I think it is an awesome & powerful quote...
"I resolve to live everyday as if I had already seen the happiness of heaven and the torments of hell."
- Johnathan Edwards
Wow! How awesome is that quote?? I want to start living everyday like that. Thinking about the happiness of Heaven & the torments of Hell. Imagine how differently I would live my life if I could do that!
Matt Carter is doing his entire sermon on Heaven this Sunday. I will definitely share it with you guys. My last post was his sermon on Hell. I highly recommend listening to it.
This post was inspired by my friend who I almost lost Thursday night. She had a really bad car wreck. I am so thankful that God was watching over her & has kept her here with us. He must have a plan for her. <3 I am excited to see what that plan is. But it made me stop & think about how fragile life really is. So don't waste another minute. Start living life today as if you were to die tomorrow, I mean really. Be authentic (inspired by Holly Stallcup's blog... http://www.fallinginlovedevo.blogspot.com/ ) with yourself & others. Truely take the time to let the people you love & care about know how much you love & care about them. Take the time to get to know other people. Most importantly, take the time to know God better & pursue your relationship with Him.
If we continue to think like this we will probably end up old & regretting putting things off & not living life to the fullest in our younger moments when we were much more capable of doing things. That is, if we even live long enough to grow old. Life is fragile. It could be over at any moment.
"Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered- how fleeting my life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath." Psalm 39: 4-5 (New Living Translation).
Imagine when you breathe onto glass, & how your breath appears on the glass for only an instant & then disappears. I picture our life to be like that. Compared to eternity; our lives are but mere breaths.
So, I ask you, where do you want to spend your enternity after this life? How are you spending your life right now? What would you do differently today if you knew you were going to die tomorrow?
In church, we have been discussing eternity. This quote continuously got brought up. I think it is an awesome & powerful quote...
"I resolve to live everyday as if I had already seen the happiness of heaven and the torments of hell."
- Johnathan Edwards
Wow! How awesome is that quote?? I want to start living everyday like that. Thinking about the happiness of Heaven & the torments of Hell. Imagine how differently I would live my life if I could do that!
Matt Carter is doing his entire sermon on Heaven this Sunday. I will definitely share it with you guys. My last post was his sermon on Hell. I highly recommend listening to it.
This post was inspired by my friend who I almost lost Thursday night. She had a really bad car wreck. I am so thankful that God was watching over her & has kept her here with us. He must have a plan for her. <3 I am excited to see what that plan is. But it made me stop & think about how fragile life really is. So don't waste another minute. Start living life today as if you were to die tomorrow, I mean really. Be authentic (inspired by Holly Stallcup's blog... http://www.fallinginlovedevo.blogspot.com/ ) with yourself & others. Truely take the time to let the people you love & care about know how much you love & care about them. Take the time to get to know other people. Most importantly, take the time to know God better & pursue your relationship with Him.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thoughts on Hell...
Last Sunday Clay & I went to the Austin Stone, like we have started doing every Sunday, but this Sunday was different. This Sunday Matt Carter delivered a very powerful message. (Okay, well every Sunday he delivers a powerful message in my opinion, but this one even more so).
His entire message was on Hell. Which pastor’s don’t ever talk about these days. Not an entire sermon like that anyway. It was intense, it was powerful, it made me think a whole lot & see things differently. I just want to share it with everyone…
http://www.austinstone.org/resources/sermons/category/hell/
At this link you can listen to the podcast of the sermon that day.
The line that probably made me think the most was one of his last lines.
He says something along the lines of…
For non-believers, enjoy this world, because earth is the closest to Heaven you are ever going to get. For believers who have put their faith & trust in Jesus, endure this world, because earth is the closest to Hell you are ever going to get.
His entire message was on Hell. Which pastor’s don’t ever talk about these days. Not an entire sermon like that anyway. It was intense, it was powerful, it made me think a whole lot & see things differently. I just want to share it with everyone…
http://www.austinstone.org/resources/sermons/category/hell/
At this link you can listen to the podcast of the sermon that day.
The line that probably made me think the most was one of his last lines.
He says something along the lines of…
For non-believers, enjoy this world, because earth is the closest to Heaven you are ever going to get. For believers who have put their faith & trust in Jesus, endure this world, because earth is the closest to Hell you are ever going to get.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Every Woman Should Read This
These words are amazing. I live by these. Every woman should, don't waste your time, don't feel heartache for a man whose not going to show you he loves you. He may say he does, but if he's not going to show you, his words mean nothing.
I know I'm never going to waste my time on a man who doesn't show me he loves me.
I know I'm never going to waste my time on a man who doesn't show me he loves me.
He can have an amazing personality. You can watch
him across a room and laugh at everything he says. He
can charm a stone. He can charm you. He can make you
feel like he is the only person alive who understands
you at that moment. He can fill the air with wit and
with charisma and with enthusiasm.
But if he fills you with nothing, he ain't worth
it. It doesn't matter how hilarious he is. How smart
he is, how creative he is, how dynamic, how thrilling,
how sweet, how original. It matters how he treats
you. And there it is.
The difficult part of finding someone you want to
be with isn't finding someone whose personality
entertains you. It isn't that he can crack you up or turn
you on. Of course, it is those things, but it's so much
more. If he's interested in you some of the time but
not all of the time he's not the one. If he makes
you giggle but makes you cry he's not the one. If he
makes you think but makes you think ill of yourself
he's not the one. He's got to want you as much as you
want him. You can't just convince yourself that deep
down he does just because you want him to want you as
much as you want him. It doesn't matter what he feels
deep down if he doesn't show it.
This isn't a movie. This is real life. Movies
have brainwashed you. Sure they have. Pure and simple.
In every tale of the beast who is tamed by the beauty.
Whether the beast in him be insecurity or alcohol or
drugs or other women. Or heartlessness or brainlessness
or cowardice. Listen up. You're not his Beauty,
you're not his Dorothy, you're not his therapist, and
you're most assuredly not his wizard. He is who he is. And
because you are who you are give up. It doesn't make
you weak. It doesn't mean you weren't good enough. It
means you have a lick of sense about you. There will
be no "Happily Ever After" at the end of your
dysfunctional version of the yellow brick road.
You love tales in which the beast changes for the
love of the woman because it makes you feel like you
hold some kind of magical power over him. To transform
him into who he really wants to be. To reveal the
prince within the monster. But guess what? You don't hold
that power. Newsflash: No one does. He is the only
one who holds the power to change himself. And if he
hasn't changed for himself, he sure as hell isn't going
to do it for you. This isn't Beauty and the Beast. It
isn't any version of the story of the asshole who
turns his life around because some dame sees the good in
him.
The truest stories are those of the man who does
change for a little while, or at least seems to, but
goes back to his old ways and leaves the hopeful woman
disappointed. This doesn't make him evil. It makes him
human. The human who isn't right for you. It's not
your fault. It doesn't mean you weren't intelligent
enough, or funny enough, or beautiful enough, or unique
enough, or understanding enough, or patient enough. You
weren't the muse to inspire him, because that muse
does not exist. It doesn't mean that you can't still be
his friend.
Chances are that eventually he will meet someone
and settle down and seem to become all of the things
that you hoped he could be for you. But don't let
this hurt you. Don't be fooled. You were good enough for
him. He just wasn't good enough for you.
If you continue hoping that sooner or later he
will come around, realize how wonderful you are, and how
you deserve better and that he's not living up to his
full potential as a person, you are breaking your own
heart. He isn't. You are. You know deep down who he
is. YOU KNOW. Beneath the goodness hiding beneath his
fear is an even deeper fear that will prevent him from
ever in one million years being what you think he can
be. You know it. Stop bullshitting yourself. No amount
of either bullying or coddling from you is going to
bring him around. You know this deep down, oh yes you do
but you stay. Because keeping yourself tied to a
man who will never change keeps you from getting
involved with a man who might change you.
Admitting that stops making it about his fear,
though, and makes it about yours. Listen to me.
Somewhere out there waits a man who will be strong enough for
your strength. Wise enough for your wisdom. A wise
woman waits for that man. She doesn't waste herself on a
madman because she will feel like more of a woman if
she is the one who can finally cure him of
his demons. Being a woman is knowing you haven't sold
yourself short. That you haven't allowed his failures
to become your own. Being a woman is being brave.
Not brave enough to stay and try to change him.
Brave enough to walk away!!!
him across a room and laugh at everything he says. He
can charm a stone. He can charm you. He can make you
feel like he is the only person alive who understands
you at that moment. He can fill the air with wit and
with charisma and with enthusiasm.
But if he fills you with nothing, he ain't worth
it. It doesn't matter how hilarious he is. How smart
he is, how creative he is, how dynamic, how thrilling,
how sweet, how original. It matters how he treats
you. And there it is.
The difficult part of finding someone you want to
be with isn't finding someone whose personality
entertains you. It isn't that he can crack you up or turn
you on. Of course, it is those things, but it's so much
more. If he's interested in you some of the time but
not all of the time he's not the one. If he makes
you giggle but makes you cry he's not the one. If he
makes you think but makes you think ill of yourself
he's not the one. He's got to want you as much as you
want him. You can't just convince yourself that deep
down he does just because you want him to want you as
much as you want him. It doesn't matter what he feels
deep down if he doesn't show it.
This isn't a movie. This is real life. Movies
have brainwashed you. Sure they have. Pure and simple.
In every tale of the beast who is tamed by the beauty.
Whether the beast in him be insecurity or alcohol or
drugs or other women. Or heartlessness or brainlessness
or cowardice. Listen up. You're not his Beauty,
you're not his Dorothy, you're not his therapist, and
you're most assuredly not his wizard. He is who he is. And
because you are who you are give up. It doesn't make
you weak. It doesn't mean you weren't good enough. It
means you have a lick of sense about you. There will
be no "Happily Ever After" at the end of your
dysfunctional version of the yellow brick road.
You love tales in which the beast changes for the
love of the woman because it makes you feel like you
hold some kind of magical power over him. To transform
him into who he really wants to be. To reveal the
prince within the monster. But guess what? You don't hold
that power. Newsflash: No one does. He is the only
one who holds the power to change himself. And if he
hasn't changed for himself, he sure as hell isn't going
to do it for you. This isn't Beauty and the Beast. It
isn't any version of the story of the asshole who
turns his life around because some dame sees the good in
him.
The truest stories are those of the man who does
change for a little while, or at least seems to, but
goes back to his old ways and leaves the hopeful woman
disappointed. This doesn't make him evil. It makes him
human. The human who isn't right for you. It's not
your fault. It doesn't mean you weren't intelligent
enough, or funny enough, or beautiful enough, or unique
enough, or understanding enough, or patient enough. You
weren't the muse to inspire him, because that muse
does not exist. It doesn't mean that you can't still be
his friend.
Chances are that eventually he will meet someone
and settle down and seem to become all of the things
that you hoped he could be for you. But don't let
this hurt you. Don't be fooled. You were good enough for
him. He just wasn't good enough for you.
If you continue hoping that sooner or later he
will come around, realize how wonderful you are, and how
you deserve better and that he's not living up to his
full potential as a person, you are breaking your own
heart. He isn't. You are. You know deep down who he
is. YOU KNOW. Beneath the goodness hiding beneath his
fear is an even deeper fear that will prevent him from
ever in one million years being what you think he can
be. You know it. Stop bullshitting yourself. No amount
of either bullying or coddling from you is going to
bring him around. You know this deep down, oh yes you do
but you stay. Because keeping yourself tied to a
man who will never change keeps you from getting
involved with a man who might change you.
Admitting that stops making it about his fear,
though, and makes it about yours. Listen to me.
Somewhere out there waits a man who will be strong enough for
your strength. Wise enough for your wisdom. A wise
woman waits for that man. She doesn't waste herself on a
madman because she will feel like more of a woman if
she is the one who can finally cure him of
his demons. Being a woman is knowing you haven't sold
yourself short. That you haven't allowed his failures
to become your own. Being a woman is being brave.
Not brave enough to stay and try to change him.
Brave enough to walk away!!!
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